Summarise me

I just realized that I've never introduced myself as the author of Honeydewww's blogposts..

Assalamualaikum, Selamat, Hello, Bonjour, Ni hao, Vanakkam, Hola, Ciao!

I'm Nur Nabilah Muhaimin, the host of Qurrata 'Ayun blog. I started blogging in 2007 when I was living in Britain and thus, most of my writings here talk about what I went through back then. So, don't get confused when reading my post before and after December '10 since I'm located in Malaysia currently.

Being born in Sept 1992 in Teluk Intan, Perak, Malaysia makes it my hometown albeit Swansea, Wales was my temporary hometown. A happy daughter to Muhaimin Sulam & Wan Noraidah Wan Ismail and also a cheeky sister to Nur Najihah, I was born in a colourful family. Having Jawa/Java blood from my father's side as well as my grandparents from my mother's side being Thailand/Siam and Arab ancestry have surprisedly made me Malay! My teacher once teased me when I told him about my family, he went "Then what are you??" with a funny face.

Regardless of my background, I only (half)master Malay and English, a bit of Arabic and French and a tiny tiny little bit of Jawa, Welsh and Thai. Someone asked me on formspring "How to improve english grammar apart from by reading?" My answer was "Start writing something in English like a diary or blog and try to use a wide range of vocabulary with help from Thesaurus.com and this can increase your vocabulary and thus making it easier to form sentences. Besides, when listening to an English conversation, listen to it carefully and watch their grammar usage."

My first school is Sra Al-Munir where I had my UPSR. Then, I started secondary school with Smka Tok Bachok and then moved to Smk Seri Perak. At the age of 14, I attended a British school called Bishop Gore Comprehensive School where I did O-level and started A-level. At the same time, I went to Swansea College for a year. Oh, I skipped PMR and SPM.

>>> Once upon a time, a visit to the Maqam of Syuhada Karbala in Dimashq, Syria.

Some issues raised when I wanted to continue my another year A-level in Malaysia, thus I changed to a foundation study. Centre for Foundation Studies, International Islamic University Malaysia (UIAM) accepted my application and here I am. If you happen to be around there, do say Hello to me! I'd be more than happy to know you.

This might sounds weird...but tap water used to be my favourite. Tap water in most places around UK can be drank unlike in Malaysia...therefore there's absolutely no need to heat the water (in order to drink) or even filter it. It's cold. My habit in the morning was to drink it before taking breakfast and I'm always tempted to do so in here! ...and I even slipped once.

I'm into volunteering. The world I knew from FOSIS, ISOC, Islamic Relief (IR), Muslim Aid, British Red Cross, Amnesty etc during my wayfaring in Swansea. I'd really love to join Islamic Relief Malaysia's programs but sadly, they didn't email me like they said when I filled up the member form. I miss street collection where you hold a bucket in the street wearing IR shirts and asking people if they have changes and want to donate. I have never tried it in Malaysia but it sure will be exciting to do in your own country.

I used to draw zirraffe and zebra a lot.
I prefer turquoise and lime green.
I miss Swansea.
I really really really want to eat the cheese savoury baguette like the one in my school!!
I like crabs but allergic to it.
I love jubah/jilbabs.
I own an Oxygen mobile.
I tried and liked Mee Darik from Dong Yi Shun Restaurant.
I don't really drink hot drinks.
I have facebook, formspring, friendster and blogspot.
I have a passion for reading, travelling and cycling.
I find it hard to write though I have two blogs.
I dream of becoming an amazing person!
(like..no one does?)

14 years in Malaysia + 4 years in the UK = 18 years of being a Muslim.

All praises to Allah for everything!

from Perak with love,
NNM

From Wales to Perak

Departed at 12.35pm

26/10/2010
Swansea train station,
Swansea UK One of the last pictures together before catching train - surrounded by lots of bags! I miss my lil friends so much...they sometimes are more fun to be with than 'big' friends. From left; Johan, Amel and Elia.

Everyone carries bags even Little Amel. Believe it or not, 4 of us couldn't manage to carry those...hmm just imagine if you're moving out of country, how many bags you must take with you?

Elia and aunty cried, Johan running towards train and Amel looking blankly leaving tears in me. Ahh...this place left too many wonderful memories in us!

Plane taking off at 6 o'clock in the morning.
27/10/2010
Heathrow airport, London.
Britain.

Note 1: Don't take flight in early morning anymore, you got to wake up very early to check in. This is not including arranging bags, a long queue and settling unpredictable additional payments. Mann...so sleepy zzzz~~

Note 2: Don't leave your stuff in the aeroplane!!! Especially the one you loved.

Gulf Air arrived at 9.46am
9/11/2010
KLIA,
Kl Malaysia.

The awkward feeling raised was when coming out of the plane and seeing around the airport that most people are Malaysians and speak Malay - you feel like you belong to it!

The funny thing was when we were about to land, the stewards and stewardess gave out a little card for visa matter to everyone to fill it in and give to border force later...just like what we did when crossing UK border everytime we travel outside UK. I was like "Oh yeah we got to fill that in", but turned out that the stewardess didn't hand us one. Wondering why...

Obviously, its my country! I've got Malaysia citizenship! Don't need visa! Ayoyo..

Bursting out deep missing.

At last..we are together :)

Its been a week and 3 days since then...and yet I'm still going through an adaptation process. And it was my first eid in my hometown after the forth eid in abroad! Somehow I can't believe I am back for good...feel like its only holiday. Someone wake me up! Ahha!

Hoping for the best to come inshallah.

Love is always around~

SAR: sr Al-Munir

Post yang sudah tertunggak berbulan-bulan lamanya. Teringat kembali bila baca isi Bajet Malaysia 2011: Bantuan perkapita 95 juta untuk Sekolah Agama Rakyat (SAR). Alhamdulillah all praises to Allah!

Sungguh, bukan senang mahu urus sekolah bila tiba2 bantuan ditarik pada 2002. Sekolah tutup, guru tiada, gaji tertunggak, murid berkurangan dan macam2 ceritalah. Arwah atuk ada uruskan SAR, jadi saya sendiri saksikan susah payah survival sekolah itu, Maahad al Islah. Jika tidak survive, kenalah surrender pada kerajaan - tukar sistem, tukar kuasa etc etc. But all praises to Allah again, it survived the hardship till now! My primary school at that time was Al-Munir, SAR, and also one of the survivors. Thus this post is dedicated to Al-Munir....I think I wrote about Maahad before.. (this doesn't indicate which one I love the most ok...ahha xD)

Dulu uniform hijau untuk pengawas, putih untuk pelajar lain. Baju melayu dan jubah untuk hari Jumaat. Sekarang hijau untuk pelajar lain, merah jambu untuk pengawas dan ada kat matrik lagi tuh. Makin berwarena-wareni!

I Heart Islam

Wah..tudung adik2 ini labuh2 belaka..
(I can't remember how my headscarf was like..:)

Kepeningan memasukkan input2 penting ke dalam kepala

Mujahid & Mujahidah, God-willing

1. Tahun 1999, sekolah ini 30 minit dari rumah saya dan jauh. Pernah terfikir, apa pasal ibuayah hantar jauh2, SK Sg Manik, Sg Lampam, Kg Bahagia semuanya 5,10,15,20 minit. Ditambah lagi dengan van/bas sekolah yang datang pukul 6.45 pagi...................awalnyeee la T_T. But alhamdulillah, it was worth it.

2. It really made my primary life colourfully awesome! Sekali masuk, terasa tak nak keluar. Al-munir ni satu-satunya sekolah rendah sesi pagi yang belajar subjek2 agama dan akademik di bandar Teluk Intan. Jadi, budak2 al-munir tak pergi sekolah agama petang....bukankah seronok pergi sekolah sehari sekali? ^__________^

3. Tahun 2002, perpindahan rumah menyebabkan sekolah ini 7 minit dari rumah saya. Kalau tak silap, sistem makan dalam talam mula tahun ini. Tiap2 waktu rehat, semua makan dalam talam dalam kumpulan. Siap praktik jilat jari dan duduk macam Rasulullah saw lagi. Dan tiada alasan tak nak makan bersama walau 'tak kawan'. Mahu menanam toleransi insani. Masyallah, rindunya kumpulan talam saya~

4. Sistem solat Zohor berjamaah selepas sekolah juga bermula tahun ini. Sekolah habis pukul 1, pukul 2 lepas solat Zohor di surau sebelah sekolah, baru balik rumah. Adik-adik darjah 1,2 solat di bawah, kakak-kakak senior solat tingkat atas. Lepas solat, ustaz bagi tazkirah seperti sesi story telling..takdela ngantuk kan. Disebabkan sistem ini baru, sesetengah pelajar dengan semangat membara beli buku log kulit keras mahu catit dan catat isi2 tazkirah..tak ingatlah, istiqamah ke tidak.

5. Mudah-mudahan Bajet 2010 ini bukan sekadar di kertas, tapi tindakan juga. Walaupun bajetnya tak boleh lawan PERMATA, impaknya inshallah besar. Tak salahkan mengharap? (:

Gambar2 hari pertama sekolah Januari 2010 dikopi dari: sralmunir.blogspot.com

Class: 1 Al-Kindi (1999)

Class teacher: Cikgu Salawati
How time flies..one time we were running around like happy kids and another time, we walk like grown ups. Barakallahu feekum, guys!

Elevator Ramadan

Ramadhan Mubarak! Ramadan kareem!
--@c(=
lolipop^

lol. Joking2.

Pernah tak korang tersangkut dalam lif?

berseorangan?

di bulan ramadan?

Saya pernah!

Mula-mula tersangkut, rasa tak percaya. Nak tekan emergency button pun ragu-ragu, 'biar betik tersangkut?'. First time, first experience!

Sekali tekan, 1 saat. Kali kedua, 4 saat. Terakhir, tujuh saat. Lama gak tunggu...banyak lampu2 terang, air-cond tiada, panas. Alhamdulillah tiada orang lain, jika tak pasti lagi suam suhunya.

"Hello, hello!"

"Can you hear me?"

"Are you all right there?

"Which floor are you at?

"Don't worry, we'll get you out"

Ok! Soalan dah banyak, bunyi krok-krek di luar, berpeluh sudah...bila cik pintu lif mahu buka?
tik.
tok.
dup.
dap.
dinggg.

"Yeyyyy!", orang2 luar bersorak gembira.
"Come on, get out before it close again!", panggil mereka pada saya yang tercacak tersenyum di depan pintu. Fuhh...macam segan pula nak keluar T_T. Terus saya pergi ke ibu yang muka sangat kerisauan...mestilah, anak ibu kan. *winks*

Lepas hari tersangkut lif, bila tengok 'muka' lif, terus paling ke anak-anak tangga. Bila terserempak dengan staff2 yang tolong bukakan lif, menebal-nebal rasa segan. Naik satu tingkat pun nak guna lif...haish.

Apa-apa pun, Ramadan mestilah challenging kan! Level iman & amal nak naik cepat dan tinggi2 macam elevator kan. Sabar2 (:

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal~

Islamic Relief Volunteers Camp

At Walesby camp, Nottingham.

The girls - from uni students, social workers, a dentist, a phd student to graduates to a school girl! As always, Im the youngest among them >.<

What's gonna work? Teamwork! It looks easy but was pretty challenging.

This is the most tiring game among all...gotta keep the boxes still. Nevertheless we won ;)

Kayak-canoeing. You see the left canoe, they bumped into the bushes!

Afasan and Nida, my sweet girls in my group. The man is the caretaker. Firstly, we built the little tipi and here it comes...
Nida is in the air!
Done and dusted.

"Volunteer- not so you can build your resumer, but so you can build yourself."

Of Seventeen

Salam, readers!!

Another semi-long break from blogging as well as from writing, thus blocking the ideas and updates. As now I'm doing subjects of sciences, maths and french, it limits my writing time (well except for a 250 words-long french essay) and forms quite serious plaque as a result. LOL. On the contrary, I shine more on reading which could improve my vocabulary. Allah's plan..masyallah. I am happy (:

Just a quick update.

The dustiest one is my 17th birthday which was one and half month ago. 24/9. Oh yes..it is. As we were still in raya mood, my sister and I asked our friends to come over to our place to celebrate it together. Sort of a gathering and I met Carol after four months the school over. I missed her, of course. Coincidentally, those who were there were us the malaysians, Carol a Chinese, Sabrina a Benggali, Mette from Denmark, Rosie from England and Emma a Welsh. Colourful races like a rainbow!


I couldn't stop smiling at my friend's question on how to cook fried fish (for nasi kerabu). It seems easy but its a knowledge! Learn and practice. Posses the knowledge and benefit your Islam and the universe - "There are two societal fatal blows: an ignorant loner and a dissolute thinker.” Be neither (:

I love one story of my after-born stories. The one that my uncle had never bored telling me again and again. Its about my arwah atuk's excitements on having the second grandchild. On the way to see me by car, he stopped and told anyone he met near by the mosque, 'Nak tengok cucu baru ni!' with a wide smile. How lovely! And now that grandchild is seventeen and is missing him.

Thanks for wishes, presents, cards from everyone. The funny part is that my best friend, Adibah wished me a happy birthday on 24/8, a month earlier just in case she can't get out from her boarding skool in Malaysia. I was like, "Its not yet Dib!!". ^_^

On 2nd November, it was my best Ibu's birthday - Wan Noraidah Wan Ismail. I certainly wouldn't be here without her. I was planning to give her Roses but I cancelled it after I saw a bouquet of flowers from Ayah for Ibu. =D A box of chocolate and a chocolate cake from me and Kakak.

Remember [17:24] "Out of kindness, lower to them (parents) the wing of humility, and say: "My Lord! bestow on them thy Mercy even as they cherished me in childhood." Love you Mummy!

A few people asked me regarding the last two post about Ramadhan in Swanc Univ Mosque because they thought I'm in Univ already. No laa..too young for univ, still doing A-level in sixth form in BGCSchool and Kolej LautAngsa. There are three (or probably more) mosques in here and one of them is located in univ area, the nearest one to our house. 7 mins on peut!

Lost

Al-Fatihah for Al-Hafiz, my ex-classmate (Form 1) who has just passed away because of an accident. It reminds me that our age doesn't determine when we die. May Allah send him to the highest heaven and transcend his family with patient and taqwa.

To my ex-classmates and colleagues in Malaysia, good luck for SPM. We share the same spirit despite our situations, insyaAllah.

snowww

Its snowinggggggg! =D

*UPDATED on Feb 14*

Well, yeah. It was snowing. The heaviest one for the last 18 years in UK! Despite of the heavy snow, I did manage myself to go to school. If you remark me as a 'good girl' by doing this, I suppose you will get your message across a bit later. Slightly behind it, it is because we had photographer session is the reason I went to school and was planning to come home afterwards even though I didn't. (I can't believe I can be this thoughtful) haha!

So then, the tomorrow's morning I tried to be a little bit of an A* student - with an intention to dig the knowledge in school. But, the school stopped me to go (they text me up) - that school was off. GRINNING.

Have a close look of her left eye!

Perlukah dipertikaikan?

Dah lebih seminggu EidulAdha disambut seluruh umat Islam. Satu post pun saya tak buat tentangnya. Beraya pun agak kelam kabut dengan tarikh yang sama dengan Mock/Trial exam - dua paper plak tuwh. Jadi, cuti satu hari, postpone exams dan dapat tiga paper sekali untuk satu hari. ayoo..

Macam-macam gaya umat Islam di seluruh dunia menyambutnya, bagi memperingati kesanggupan Nabi Ibrahim a.s untuk mengorbankan anak lelakinya, Nabi Ismail a.s atas perintah Allah - kerna patuh dan cintanya pada Allah s.w.t. Saya amat pasti pembaca2 blog ini yang beragama Islam pasti tahu tentang cerita ini. Tapi, sanggupkah kita buat pengorbanan sebesar itu untuk Tuhan yang satu yang mencipta kita?

Kadang-kadang, pernah juga terlintas di fikiran "Kenapa Allah larang itu ini bla bla bla..?" Bukan jawapannya yang kita cari. Ya, saya tahu banyak kajian2 sains yang membuktikan keberkesanannya. Tapi jika tidak tahu, untuk argue samada betul atau tidak larangan itu tidak lah perlu. Contoh mudah seperti awat kena solat, tak bley minum arak dan kena pakai tudung.

Ayah saya selalu cakap tentang ini bila saya tanya. Satu sahaja yang perlu tahu - Allah itu Tuhan yang maha esa lagi bijaksana. Dia sudah menggariskan peraturan-peraturannya dan kita hambanya hanya perlu patuh padaNya dan ikut peraturan2 yang digariskan. Siapa kita hendak argue itu semua?

"Di antara manusia ada yang mengatakan: Kami beriman kepada Allah dan Hari kemudian, padahal mereka itu sesungguhnya bukan orang-orang yang beriman. (Al Baqarah 2:8)"

Tepuk dada, tanyalah diri.

Alhamdulillah, raya tahun ni best sangat walaupun tengah2 exam. Rasanya, lagi best dari Aidilfitri. Kami sefamili raya di Lampeter, town tempat Univ ayah study. Tazkirah oleh Dr Mawil yang berkaitan dengan Eidul Adha. Habis beraya kat rumah Uncle Zaidi & co dan Uncle Zaharuddin & co, balik rumah and faced the exams on the tomorrow's morning!

Apa-apa pun,
Tak kisahlah ke mana kita pergi
Apa yang kita pakai
Makanan apa yang disantap
Tetapi apa yang kita dapat darinya.

Hope you all had a fantastic aidiladha!

Dari Pak Cik Google

After I have been googling around, I had a thought to publish some of the results. Basically, its part of my personal life.

First of all, I would love to thank to Fadzil Yusuf's blog (ex-maahad Al-Islah) for dedicating this poem especially for Almarhum atuk saya (Hj Sulamuddin Hj Mansor). Similarly, to everyone for the condolence and prayers. I have seen some of them on their blogs and also Friendster. I know its been for three months, but as I told you earlier on it is part of my life, which I'd like to sketch a bit of it here.


Sebuah Sajak Untuk Ustaz Sulam
13.7.08 by Fadzil Yusof

(In the middle with beard is my late grandpa)

butir ingatan
(buat ustaz sulamuddin hj mansor)

kupegang tangan
kulihat wajahmu
diri terasa semalam
baru meninggalkan madrasah ini.

cinta dari ilmu yang kau curahkan
memberikan selalu rasa dingin
di lindungi awan kasih
dalam perjalanan pulang.

kulihat tubuhmu
diriku rasa bersalah
kehilangan arah dan titik temu
jalan kebenaran

seperti semalam asar
aku mendengar kuliahmu
seperti semalam subuh
ku menerima nasihat syahdumu
seperti semalam maghrib
ustaz membuka kitab dan mensyarahnya
seperti semalam zuhur
mengimamkan jemaah kami.

rindu pada agama
ustaz tuturkan
seperti perjalanan sementara ini tiada sempurnanya
tanpa iman, ilmu dan amal.

jujurkan jiwa kami kabur
lembutkan hati kami yang keras dan muda
pimpinkan ke rumah-rumah cahaya
dekatkan kami kepada rindu ahli syurga.

ustaz, hanya pada masa ini
bahasamu seolah menghampiri
lebih dekat kepada diri
yang masih mencari rindu yang harmoni

kami sentiasa menitipkan harapan
kesegaran untukmu yang dirindui
oleh ahli ilmu di dunia dan di syurga
doa kami sentiasa kepadamu
ingatan kami akan terus padu.

(Al-Fatihah)

Bringing back memory

Last summer (July '08), when I went back to Malaysia, we had a chance to meet our new MB Perak and his family. The time when there is a massive change in politics world in Malaysia. He is still a same person, same personality but in a different position than the one I met in June '07 in UK. Most importantly, we met Yah(his youngest child) and she is still 'Minah kecoh' with her Perak dialect. believe me! hohoo. We went to their house just straight after we left Uncle Asmuni's house. I found this photo on DS Fatimah Taat's blog (DS Nizar's wife).

Bergambar di rumah Tuan Haji Asmuni Awi ketika menghadiri

Jamuan Meraikan Petugas-petugas Muktamar PAS ke-54

Us, who are still alive - teruskan perjuangan dalam medan perjuangan yang tiada pengakhirannya sehinggalah syiar Islam ditegakkan. To me, perjuangan atuk saya sudah selesai tetapi mesti diteruskan oleh kami yang masih muda, masih bertenaga, masih 'fresh'. Berjuang di medan yang tidak sama rata, dugaannya lagi kuat dan pahalanya lagi banyak! Rasulullah saw menggunakan politik untuk menyebarkan Islam kerana politik itu sendiri dalam Islam. Bagaimana pula kita?

loads of wishes to be wished

8th November 2008

Lyric of song underneath;

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Mama
Happy birthday to you.

Its for last Sunday - 2nd November.
I wish late here but on time(12am) on that day!
She's coming back tomorrow from Malaysia. yey!
Dreaming on the plane now, I guess. Or shopping in Dubai.hee.

I want my mummy

23rd October 2008

Who should I give all my love to?
Who should I think most of?
After Allah And Rasulullah
Comes your mother

Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother

Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah For my mother.


She's my Ibu. The only Ibu I would ever have no matter how she likes.
She's my Ummi. The only lady I would trust the most.
She's my Mama. She has a beauty of a mother that only her child would recognize.
She's ma Mere. The woman who comes after Allah and prophet Rasulullah pbuh in my heart.
She's my Mummy. The only person I am missing a lot.

Its been more than 2 weeks she aint here. She's doing her obligation - looking after her daddy aka my grandpa who's got minor stroke in fourth raya (doakan, please). It will be a month - no kiss, no hug, no babbling - to be honest, its BORING.

Then, its only Ayah, Kakak and Adik(me!) left. No relatives at all in here, Great Britain. Its totally different to Malaysia which you could spend your whole weekend with your grandparents & cousins. Regardless of that, I learnt to be independant, otherwise you might find yourself alone at the bottom of your life. I meant it, really. It was 'no daddy no mummy' last weekend with Ayah was in Prague, Czech Republic and Ibu was in Malaysia. So, we had 3 days 2 nites sleepover at Uncle Noor & Aunty Cathy's house. I know. I know. You might tease me but it was my parents' choice. Even we were separated by broad oceans, mountainous regions thousands miles, they still protected us. This is what I proud of to be a daughter of Muhaimin Sulam & Wan Noraidah Wan Ismail.

After all, I want my mummy..

im GLAD

12th October 2008

Catching a glimpse of the above picture, you might have an idea that I'm happy (unless you think that's a natural face of Chinese baby!). Yes, I am delighted, blissful and pleased so much! I was thinking why cant I write something about what I feel for my own satisfaction in my own blog? I've seen some bloggers who release their anger, annoy and dissatisfactions on their post. But I prefer to keep those rather than announce it. It might get far worse though - when it comes to a bad reputation except if its cheerful or cheery post released. Hey, you can even do press release for that! And here I am. (=

What I did? Hmm.. guess what. I did think this raya isnt as good as last year and i did think Raya in Malaysia is far awesome than here. I thought it was lyk that - first bcoz this is the first raya I celebrate without my late grandpa from my dad's side. Secondly, my grandpa from my mum's side had minor stroke in fourth raya, and thirdly, we cancelled a week Raya trip to Scotland for certain reasons et cetera. Its just get to my mind, this raya is so boring. I admit that it was not a good thought. But thats what I felt. Is it because there is gonna be less fun in raya when you're getting older or growing lyk some people said?

However, last weekend was making it much much much better. I made sushi - malay style, rendang ayam bla3. We had kinda lyk open house for Lampeter malays and also for A.Amir Syafiq who came from Bristol. The thing is my ibu went back to Malaysia last week for a month and yeah, we did cook! The menu was pretty good though - rendang ayam, rice cake, sushi, rojak+tauhu+cucur+salad, corn porridge, strawberry pie (tesco made :-p) and banana splits as desert. I supose those were okey-cooked otherwise people wont finish it! Thank you so much thank you to you people for the ziarah - they were 7 families from Lampeter and 1 family from Swansea. Sorry for any shortcomings. We are bringing our silaturrahim closer. You make me glad to be here.

At last, I started the six-day fast in Syawal today. Surely, Im so glad because I was planning to do it last weekend, but then I was ill. At the first, I had sore throat which I needed loads of water then fever then cold. This is a normal step I went through every single time when I had sore throat. That was caused by the heaters - all the heaters in schools are turning on now due to autumn/winter season. It absorbs your body water very well!

Alhamdulillah, I think my belly needs some rest after two weeks full of marvellous, sensational and superb foods! The 6-day fast has been done by our prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h and therefore as his 'ummah', why cant we? There is hadith which say, "He who fasts in the month of Ramadan followed by 6 days in Syawal, it is as if he has fasted for 1 year."

p/s: Beraya not to check out the food but for our silaturrahim. Remember that. You people who wish to come for raya to my house are warmly welcomed. :)

12.08.2008

12th August 2008

12.9.2008. Genap sebulan arwah mbah lanang (atuk) meninggalkan kami. Terasa macam embah masih di alam dunia ini. Senyumanya, air matanya, ciumannya..Ahh! Rindu.

Ramai orang kata, kami beruntung. Sempat menatap wajahnya, menjaga makan minumnya dan ya, berada di sisinya membaca Yassin ketika nazaknya! Sebulan seminggu menghabiskan masa bersama, kalau diikutkan memang tidak cukup. sgt. Tapi, alhamdulillah. Cukuplah daripada tiada langsung. Dua minggu selepas itu, saya dan famili terbang ke Great Britain. Sepatutnya 12/8 itu, kami kembali ke negara musafir kami. Dan kerna takdir, embah pergi. Hati memang pilu tapi puas kerna semuanya settle. Daripada meninggalkan embah ketika embah menanggung kesakitan, memang tak sanggup. Biarlah embah pergi menemui penciptaNya. Itulah HIKMAH .


Benda yang paling saya ingat ialah saya orang yang pertama buat embah senyum selepas begitu lama tiada ukiran senyuman di mukanya! Waktu tu, baru sehari sampai Malaysia. Tak terniat pun nak buat lawak, tetiba terjadi plak lawaknya. Arwah embah senyum sampai tak boleh nak berhenti. Happy sangat! :) sampai menitis air mata embah kegembiraan. The days after that, kekadang kan, tak semene2 arwah embah gelak and senyum mendengar celotehku. Ntah ape, tak ingat. Main cerite jer ape2 sebab arwah ske sangat dengar. Setiap hari, pasti ada yang menziarahinya. Tak sah kalau tiada. Kadang-kadang ramai, kadang-kadang sikit. Tapi tetap ada.


Dua hari sebelum embah meninggal (Selasa), ekspo selama 4 hari di SMA Maahad Al-Islah baru sahaja selesai. SMA Maahad Al-Islah adalah sekolah agama swasta yang dibangunkan arwah ketika hidupnya. Impian arwah embah untuk mengumpulkan sanak-saudaranya di Hari Keluarga telah tercapai. Di mana ia diadakan pada hari Sabtu. Ramai dan meriah. Sayangnya, arwah di hospital ketika itu. Tapi, embah puas kerna dapat menemukan mereka semua. Petangnya pula, majlis Hi-Tea reunion Alumni Maahad Al-Islah. Manakala, pada hari Ahad adalah Hari Kecemerlangan Maahad Al-Islah, turut hadir MB Perak, Dato' Seri Ir. Hj. Nizar Jamaluddin. Arwah embah nak sangat hadir. Hadir seketika dan balik semula ke hospital. Berkali-kali embah beritahu pada doktor tentang itu. Dan berkali-kali juga dye menanya pada ayah tentang apa yang perlu embah ckp pada MB. Arwah embah excited sangat.


Diikutkan hati, banyak sangat nk dicelotehkan di ruangan ini. Cuma, kekangan masa membataskan. Dipendekkan la jadinye.


Hari Selasa pagi tuwh, ayah bgtau yang embah dah tenat. sangat2. Hilang terus ngantuk. Terus bersiap. Satu badan menggeletar. Critical time. It scared me out. Teratak embah mula dipenuhi orang ramai. Sekolah Maahad Al-Islah ditutup. Bacaan Yassin kedengaran. Syahadah diajarkan. Hati kepiluan. Arwah embah nazak sehingga lepas Zohor. Kira-kira pukul 2.45, embah kembali ke rahmatullah. Kerna Allah lebih sayangkan dirinyaa.. Sayang seribu kali sayang, saya tiada disisinya detik, saat itu. Ketika itu, saya sedang solat Zohor. Lemah sendi lututku. Tangisan kedengaran. Sedih. Hati pedih.


Malam itu, ramai yang hadir. Tak henti-henti. YB Salahuddin Ayub pun datang. Kebetulan ketika itu minggu Muktamar PAS. Di celah-celah kesibukan malam tuw, di bawah kain putih yang menyelimuti wajah arwah embah, jenazah embah tersenyum! Cucu mana yang tidak gembira melihatkan embahnya tersenyum. Hati rasa senang.

Arwah embah disolatkan pada pukul 11 pagi keesokan harinya, berimamkan anaknya, pak cikku. Ust. Ahmad Awang (Vice President of PAS) turut menjadi makmum. Masjid Jame' Al-Mansor yang dibangunkan arwah embah penuh sesak. Ramai yang tidak dapat solat. Masakan tidak. Air sembahyang habis. Habis digunakan.

Akhir tulisan, ribuan terima kasih saya ucapkan kepada semua yang mendoakan kesejahteraan embah dan yang tidak pernah putus memberi semangat kepada kami sekeluarga ketika kami mendambakannya. JazakallahKK. May Allah lets my grandpa stand there with those who stand for Allah!






'In every moment, I miss him.'

p/s: Ayah ada tulis di kolumnya tentang arwah embah di akhbar SIASAH keluaran kedua bulan Ogos. Tajuknya 'Pulanglah, wahai anakku!' Check it out!

-seeing people I love are happy is one of my happiness-

11th Jun 2008

Catatan ini adalah catatan yang agak ‘basi’ yang saya tak sempat catatkan disini. Walaubagaimanapun, tak salah kan kalau dicoretkan. :)

Merci Beaucoup MB Perak. (Thanks a lot MB Perak)

Alhamdulillah dalam sebulan yang lalu, embah lanang (mon grand-pere) saya telah menerima ziarah daripada PCik Nizar, MB Perak yang baru. Ketika itu, kalau tak silap, kami baru sahaja menerima berita bahawa embah lanang kami menghidap ‘Colon Cancer’ kira-kira seminggu. Terima Kasih banyak2 – itu sahaja yang saya bley katakan. Ziarah itu telah meniupkan semangat embah lanang untuk melawan penyakitnya dan memberi 1001 makna padanya.

Kami tahu, embah lanang (mon grand-pere) teringin sangat berjumpa dengan PCik Nizar. Hendak melihat sendiri bagaimana MB Perak kami yang baru. Embah lanang hanyalah menjadi salah satu daripada orang-orang yang mahu kepimpinan Pakatan Rakyat di Perak dan juga Malaysia berjaya. Orang yang tidak pernah jemu menyokong perjuangan Islam di Malaysia walaupun PAS pernah mengalami zaman jatuhnya. Dan kini, apabilah Perak diperintah oleh Pakatan Rakyat dibawah MB daripada PAS, pastinya hatinya berbunga2! Bunga-bunga kegembiraan dan kesyukuran.

Tahun lepas, PCik Nizar ada menziarahi embah lanang untuk hantar barang kiriman kepada keluarga di Malaysia sebab ketika itu PCik Nizar baru balik dari UK. Waktu itu, embah lanang jauh berbeza – sihat. Tapi kini, badannya jauh menyusut.

Ketika ziarah baru-baru ini, embah lanang (mon grand-pere) menangis terharu. Kebetulan ketika itu, ada program bersama MB Perak di Teluk Intan. Jadi, beliau singgah sebentar di teratak embah kami, kira-kira 45 minit. Tidaklah lama mana, tapi cukup. Di dalam ziarahnya, PCik Nizar call ayah untuk ayah memberi ucapan sepatah dua kata, menggunakan loudspeaker. Ayah memberi kata2 perangsang pada embah lanang dan selepas itu, PCik Nizar pun berucap sedikit. Turut bersama beliau adalah PCik Misbahul Munir (Set.Pol MB), pegawai khas beliau, dan beberapa orang yang lain.

Harapan kami agar embah lanang (mon grand-pere) sihat kembali dan kepada PCik Nizar, semoga Allah sentiasa menolong dan bersama PCik Nizar dalam segala urusan. And again, Merci Beucoup Monsieur Nizar!






































Joyeux anniversaire, ma soeur! (Happy Birthday, sis!)

Catatan yang kedua ini adalah agak baru. Jadi, tidaklah se'basi' yang pertama. hee :)) Dua minggu lepas, kami menyambut hari lahir kakak saya, Nur Najihah di mana sambutannya di buat bersama Johan, si cilik berambut perang. Seorang 17 tahun, seorang lagi 4 tahun - jauh beza woo. Bertempat di teratak Uncle Nor & Auntie Catherine dan alhamdulillah amat2 meriah. Cetait amusant!

Ia turut dimeriahkan dengan pasangan pengantin baru - Abg David dan Kak Nurul, Sahabat famili Uncle Nor - orang2 Muslim Tanzania yang sekaligus menjadi sahabat famili kami. Untuk kakak, saya telah membuat satu 'promise' untuk memberikan 10 hadiah. Dan untuk makluman, 7 sudah selesai, 3 lagi tinggal. Hurm..nak bagi ape lagi eh? Paling istimewa, pastinya Cheesey Bread Pizza by Chef Nur Nabilah. ^_^

Wish saya adalah - May all your wishes come true & may Allah blessing shower upon sis. Insyallah.























**This post has a bit of French as currently I am having a french-filled head due to couple of French exams I have got lately**
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