I remember part of a text from a close friend of mine: 'If you have a big problem, tell it - My God is bigger than my big problem!' And as a human being, I couldn't resist to feel my heart as if it were sinks in a very deep ocean. I then realized Allah knows better what He had done and there is always something beyond of human knowledge behind it.
I hardly cry whilst reading Qur'an. In fact, I can just count it with fingers on my hands. I wasn't in that situation since a few weeks after my grandpa passed away back in August. I barely stand for this thingy. A good thing to do is - bursting out the problems to a loved one because He always there when others refuse to. You dont have to ask Him for that.
Like what I convinced myself of-
'Allah chose you to face this big test. You know why? Truthfully, because He loves you. The bigger the test is, the harder it is, the more good deeds you collect.'
Somehow, those intense feelings will gradually eased, leaving the heart. Sometime. Don't forget people who are being tested more than us, our Muslim brothers & sisters in Palestine, Afghanistan, Iraq, Iran, Malaysia, Britain and over the world - pray for them.
Istiqamahkan Iman Islam Kami, ya Allah.
Allah is great.
Allah Maha Besar.
::Nur Nabilah Muhaimin
::.Night before Xmas